outspokn.

Life is interesting thats for sure and unpredictable to say the least.
The man four years ago whom respected his mother turned out to have a very foul relationship with her… having little respect for women in general. He was a selfish party animal but I loved him. I fell harder then I ever had for anyone – I thought he was going to be my forever.

The first year of the relationship was full of highs and lows. We spent everyday together, we went skiing and to concerts we drank copious amounts of wine. But there was trouble in paradise right from the begining. He would lie about having car insurance when he didn’t – he lied about being a smoker. He lied about talking-to his ex and emailing her looking for her approval. Around the one year Mark he left to go work away for a year…
His financial irresponsibility became my responsibility even more then it was before.

Eventually, I broke making myself a mad woman trying to figure out how to fix the situation I felt seemingly stuck in. We would argue constantly – his favourite was to break-up with me all the time when he was angry. As you can probably tell this created a lot of insecurity in the relationship. We broke up and he ran off with some girl he just met to New Brunswick to meet her family… Only to come home and get back together with me.

The Second time and final time we broke up he went and slept with multiple people, did a bunch of drugs…bought a motorcycle etc. He did everything but attempt to tell me that he loved me and wanted to be with me and fix our demons…

A year and a half later I lost my house, I’m renting and starting over. I’m dating but thats complicated too, at first I couldn’t find anyone that I liked. Then I find someone that I like and I can’t read the signs. He isn’t over his ex so I can’t say for sure why he’s been on tinder for over a year. Already I’m having feelings for this guy and worried about getting hurt all over again. I’m trying my best to be vulnerable but it’s a work in progress…

I know being in a relationship isn’t everything but I would love to have someone who is genuine, kind and adventurous to share life with. Hopefully that’s you, B.